The downward spiral.
It is happening.
I am watching it.
Right before my eyes I feel like I am losing him.
I don't think he can stop it.
His "friends" change constantly, but each time they are his best friend. Day or night, Sunday -Saturday, he wants to do something with them. But slowly they start to disappear. And a new friend or two moves in. He is friends with everyone and no one. I don't think people can "take him" for long. He is intense, dramatic, and to my surprise socially awkward and inept. I don't think people see that right off the bat.
He lies over inconsequential things.
He can't even plan how to get from point A to point B.
He isn't holding himself together as well in front of people now.
He flunked 5 of his 8 classes this nine weeks.
I think maybe he is like a puzzle that got put together wrong. To put it together right, it has to broken completely apart. You have to start back at square one.
So maybe saying that I can see it happening, see the downward spiral is actually a good thing. Maybe healing can only begin once all the pieces are broken apart.
Quite surprisingly, this post made me think of the seminars I attended recently on neuro-reorganization. The idea being that to be "our best self" - our development needed to be optimal,and both before birth and in the next three years all the proper connections needed to be made in our brain... She presented it like a chart....and your post made me see that same chart with the pieces falling apart, some missing, some incomplete. But - the brain is very flexible and those connections can be made throughout life; substitute routes can even replace the connections which cannot be made due to injury or genetic inability. So - there's hope!
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